【号泣】１０年間大嫌いだった父に手紙を書きました

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「きちんと伝えきれてよかったです」

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◆目次
00:00~ 父への想い
05:48~ 料理の仕上げ
07:18~ 父の日のサプライズ
08:17~ 父への手紙
11:46~ いただきます
15:29~ デザートタイム
17:18~ １日の終わり

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I came with my mom to choose a Father’s Day present. It’s a set of a tie and a handkerchief. I’m writing my first letter to my father. The truth is, I’ve always hated my father. For over 10 years, I’ve tried to avoid him as much as possible. Today, on Father’s Day, I’m mustering up the courage to change myself . My father has always been quick to get angry, and from a young age he would often yell at me. I didn’t know why, so I just cried and apologized. I was particularly sensitive and easily hurt, so I couldn’t erase the hurt and kept it to myself. However, in order to protect myself, I began to distance myself from my father. My loathing for my father was so deeply rooted that I began to notice only his bad points, and it became a vicious cycle. I hated myself for not being able to be grateful to my father for working, even though I was alive. I wanted to change myself, so one day, I made up my mind and called my father to talk. We spent two hours together frankly discussing the situation. 」 English: All the feelings that I had been bottled up for so long came spilling out and for the first time I burst into tears in front of my father. After hearing my story, my father also opened up and spoke to me. My father is usually a loud, energetic man, but he began to speak in a sad expression I had never seen before. He told me that after his children were born, he had worked hard for his family. He had grown up in a terrible family environment in the past. He felt sorry for making me, his son, go through a similar experience. He also honestly told me things that he had only ever told my mother. It was then and there I learned for the first time the many things my father had been carrying . I only knew a part of my father . In particular, the pressure of having to support five sons must have been considerable. One day, when I hated my father, my mother told me, “Dad, you know, gave all the money he earned to Mommy. He never bought anything for himself, he kept it all at home.” “That’s how hard he works for his family,” he told me gently. I heard that he had to endure not even being able to buy a 100 yen can of coffee after work. All of his clothes were in tatters. His undershirts were so worn out that his skin was visible, and his T-shirts had holes in them with wrinkled collars. He rarely wore new, clean clothes. And so , he worked and risked his life to make sacrifices. That was my father. He was often clumsy with his children, but he certainly showered them with love. I have finally come to realize this love, which I had never been able to accept so readily until now. The fact that I have been able to survive this long is proof that I have been loved. I realized this while interacting with my brothers’ babies, who were born recently. Now that I am on the side of giving love, I realize the magnitude of the love I have received. I felt that way thanks to my 0-year-old nephews. And thanks to all of you who support me through YouTube , I was able to face my father so seriously. Thanks to your support, I have the courage to change myself. Today, I will take another step. Please give me a little more courage. I will try to taste it. It is a marinade made by my mother. I will serve rice. I will also serve taco rice . It is melted cheese. I will melt the cheese in the microwave . It is a spicy taco-style snack. Finally, I will finish it with cherry tomatoes. I will bring a present and a letter. One more thing… Actually… I wrote a letter. I am a little nervous, but I will read it for the first time . To Dad, thank you for working hard for your family for so long . To be honest, I have had a lot of grudges against you and I have kept my distance for a long time. However, there was one time when we talked about everything , covered in tears and snot . At that time, I heard my father talk about his past for the first time . I learned for the first time that my father had been living desperately while carrying many things from the past . After that, I had a lot of conflicts, but I decided to face my father again without running away . I once again removed the lid from the bottom of my heart and looked back on the past. I looked back at the album from the first page. There were many proofs of love there. I closed my eyes and asked my heart. I felt that I had been loved until now. Various scenes came back to my mind. When I was bedridden with a high fever, you were with me and took care of me. On a precious day off when I wanted to rest, you took the family to the beach. I still remember my father sleeping alone in the car, tired and alone, instead of going to the beach . I heard that he entrusted all the money he earned every day to his mother for his family . I learned that he even refrained from buying 100 yen canned coffee for himself . All of that was love. I was not able to accept my father’s love honestly. I’m sorry. It took a long time, but I’m finally starting to realize it little by little. I owe it to my mother and my father that I have been able to live until now . Thank you so much. I hope we will continue to be friends. I pull myself together and it’s time to eat. Let’s eat. I love you so much that all the family knows about it . You took me to all kinds of places and I bought desserts for everyone. Thank you for the meal . I’ll prepare dessert for Dad. I’ll put some cream and strawberries on top. I’ll boil some water and prepare tea. Green tea goes well with something sweet. I’ll add the tea leaves. The water is boiled and I’ll add lots of cream for the bath. I took a bath in strawberry cream. We both enjoyed dessert. I cleaned up the dishes. Today I was very nervous and anxious, but I did it without any regrets. To be honest, there are still some things I don’t know about what my relationship with Dad will be like from now on , but I’d be happy if you could support me in the future. I ‘m on the terrace and enjoying the night breeze. I can hear the chorus of frogs in the distance. Today was an especially good day.